Monday, October 3, 2011

Goodbyes and Hellos

Hi! Hello! Hey there you wonderful readers and friends! It's been a while. I'd say I'm sorry for the absence but... I'm not. I needed time. I needed space. Life got really really hard for a while in ways I couldn't talk about publicly. This blog, which for so long was a space to sort through my own messy wedding planning thoughts, became a burden. I didn't want to write about the hard dark moments this summer but I felt so guilty about disappearing on you. However, I needed to disappear for a while to work through some private issues. Taking that necessary step back showed me that I've outgrown this blog.

This space has been so important to me over the last two years. This space gave me a lifeline to a community of like-minded people navigating wedding planning and life transitions. This space - and my readers' ongoing comments, cheerleading, and friendship - gave me new confidence in myself as a writer.  Even more than throwing some words on a screen, I feel like I built something, carving out a little corner of sanity for myself that apparently resonated with others too. I learned to trust my own voice, buoyed by the support so many of you showed me, and I grew stronger in my professional life in ways that are just starting to unfold. I discovered new passions. I discovered new talents. I made so many friendships, some of which I've been lucky to grow in person and so many of which I treasure online. I planned a wedding. I learned about marriage. My life grew immeasurably richer because of this blog.

I'm not interested in talking about weddings anymore, but any moving-forward writing felt constrained by the history of this space. I felt stuck. I love what this space is, but I no longer cared to expand on these conversations. My relationship, unlike my wedding, is a private thing. And my daily life, unlike a year ago, is no longer consumed by wedding planning stress. These days, I'm much more passionate about my career, mentoring women, politics, social analysis, striving for some semblance of balance, and learning to forgive myself when balance remains elusive. 

For whatever reason, I couldn't find a way to start these new conversations here. So I started them elsewhere. I have a new blog. It's different than this one. It may be more overtly political. It may have more career topics. It may be a bit more personal. It may be a bit more flippant. We'll see. It's a work in progress, much like myself. It's also just progress, which feels so important as I grew beyond the wedding and my words here. 

Thank you to all of you for reading my words. Thank you to everyone who commented, emailed, engaged me on twitter, and voted for me in the 2010 Wedding Channel contest. I can never thank you enough. I am so grateful for this blog and the experience it became. But it's time to say goodbye to A Los Angeles Love and hello to the next step. 

I hope you will join me, but I understand if you don't. I'm blogging now at Stumble and Leap.

Love and gratitude always,


 Photos by the incredible Kelly Prizel Photography