I can get through this
I will get through this
I've done it before I can do it again.
This too shall pass
You've managed harder challenges than this!
Who needs sleep anyhow?
Hmm. I think my mantra skills need work. I think mantras are supposed to inspire and not just blow dejected-seeming hot air around the same sad facts. But this is all I'm capable of right now.
Zen is a myth than can go jump off a bridge. I'm currently giving another presentation in another far-off city while my to-do list continues to mock me, smug in the knowledge that it can never be conquered and that my boss will be unhappy about eight still incomplete/in-progress tasks when I arrive back in the office, despite a sure-to-be-great presentation. "Sure-to-be-great presentation." Hmm. Yeah. That's my "I f*cking rule" enthusiasm for the day. Because it WILL be great, but it won't help me with anything beyond another checkbox on my to-do list.. Zen and balance and self-help exhortations can take that mantra and wave it around like a battle cry, because success in this one teeny corner of life is all that's keeping the rest of my life from going over a ledge. Balance: ha. Zen: ha. Survival: yes, please.
Oh, and I haven't done one lick of work on my wedding website or save the date since I wrote about it last week. Nor have I done a lick of work on anything wedding related in the last month. A human being can only handle so much before she has to prioritize and shed deadweight obligations. That's right wedding, I'm talking about you. You can go jump in a pond with Zen and Balance and come back when you're ready to play nice again.