Dreamland Venue Sanity Check

I've spent much of the last 48 hours (yes, 48 hours, because I could barely sleep) alternating between extreme venue/wedding anxiety, freaking out about the budget, and feeling so unbelievably grateful for the support everyone here has been showing us. I've tried to read over sanity-check and wedding graduate posts to hold onto the real wisdom and joy at the heart of our weddings but, from in the middle of this anger, mourning and anxiety, finding the core of our wedding hasn't been all that easy.

I'm lucky, though, because I have a partner who has an incredible ability to keep me grounded. Apparently even his dreams help keep me grounded, or at least they do when he turns venue nightmares into sanity check reminders.

"Last night I had my first-ever wedding dream. Our wedding was in this big empty nondescript place that sort of felt like an empty mall food court mixed with an office building.  We had to take an elevator up to the 2nd floor to walk down the aisle.  There were no decorations except for a white runner that spanned the length of the floor.  Yeah, it was weird.  But I was still happy, because I got to marry you and all our friends & family were there."